Are you that ghost? (Corey) *

Are you that ghost
in the motes of dust
who I see when my eyes
are too tired to focus ?

Are you the friend
I lost on the way
Is it true, we have
nothing left to say ?

Are you the choice
I made one day
that set me on
this path I tread ?

Is it you that whispers
might have beens
do you miss the chances
you didn't take either ?

And is it lonely
where you are
under the ground
and cold cold stars ?

Was it you who urged me
to just let go
Your unseen voice
enticing me along......

While I'd flirt with
suicide at dusk
As shadows chased
the dwindling sun ?

Did you know I was empty
cold and numb
but my real life
had only just begun ?

Did it seem to you
as you watched through the veil
that my life too
was bound to fail ?

You could not know
how different we are
For here I am anchored
by more than my heart .

When dreams fail I'll dream anew
Though dark moods stalk me
I still escape
but is it your ghost I cannot shake?

Is it you who reminds me
late at night
of all I am
and still just might be?

And just why is it
you chose to haunt me
so I don't make the same
mistakes that you did ?

Did you make peace
with the life you led
or do you hang on the moon
of pale regret.........?

destiny

free will
versus the urge to blame
a thousand failed accomplishments
my shame
and guilt I wear it like cologne
it lingers and I feel alone

Codependancy
is it really all that wrong to need
the approval of another human being
encouragement
or critisicism?

Dreams take fanciful flights
above me
dashing to break on the path before me
is it true that everyone ignores me?

self doubt
and negatives I force feed myself
counterproductive to my own mental health

but smouldering beneath it all
is who and what I am after all

It has taken some time and struggle for me
to learn the truth about destiny
I must be exactly who I am meant to be
for no one else is exactly me